Your anxiety and depression will not go away
Ever since I was a little girl I remember being so nervous about everything. Wherever I went I had butterflies flying around in my stomach and had the feeling that I was going to throw up. I was always afraid something bad would happen. I worried that my parents would get hurt or never come back and get me or that someone was going to be mean to me. Sometimes I didn’t even know what I was worried about, I just was. Whenever I had to do a speech in front of the class, my nerves were so bad that I thought I was going to cry. Once I would get up there, I could barely speak and my voice was super shaky. I was very shy. I always thought that this would go away but it didn’t. When I was in my older teenage years I thought that life would get better once I was older and these nerves would go away. Of course it didn’t and if I could go back I would tell myself to get help with how to cope with these struggles in life because they only got worse as I got older.
You think you know everything, but you basically don’t
I think this is pretty typical about any teenager, but at 16 I felt like I had life totally figured out and I knew everything. Boy was I wrong. Once I went to college and experienced life without my parents constantly by my side I realized how much I still needed to learn in life. I basically thought that things would be handed to me, that I would just “figure it out” when I got older and that nothing bad would happen to me. I think this is pretty typical of my generation and I wish that I could go back and tell myself that I needed to work really hard if I wanted to succeed in life. Would I have listened to my older self? Probably not, but it’s fun to think about.
Enjoy being a teen
With my anxiety and depression, I was always anxious about getting my life going. I knew I wanted to fall in love, get married and be a mom some day and I just wanted it to happen right then (when I was 16. Yea, I was crazy). I was so focused on finding the love of my life and I dated someone for about 2 years when I realized he wasn’t the one. When I was 16, I wished that I was 25. Now that I am almost 27, I wish I could go back and live the life of a teenager again. I am very happy where my life is at now because I have a wonderful little girl and a super handsome fiance’ and wouldn’t change that for the world but I do wish I would have lived in the moment when I was younger. Instead, I was so focused on the future.
Don’t go to college
Going to college is probably one of the biggest regrets I have in life. The experience was great and I had a lot of fun, but it was a very expensive 5 years of my life. I really struggled with depression so I had to drop a lot of classes, change schools and majors and finally realized that school wasn’t for me. Now I am in about $40,000 in debt with no degree. HORRIBLE, horrible mistake and if I could go back I would tell myself to not go to school and just work until I figured out what I wanted to do. I still to this day don’t know what I want to do!
Save as much money as you can
This kind of goes along with telling myself not to go to college but I would tell my 16 year old self to save as much money as you can. Again when I was younger I always told myself I would get more money when I was older and I would spend like crazy. I would buy clothes, go out to eat, and just spend it on the most useless things ever. Maybe that was all part of growing up and I am sure a lot of people go through that but I wish I would have saved so that I wasn’t in so much debt.
With that said, I am very happy with where my life is right now! I really wouldn’t change it at all. I think I have learned to love the things that I have and develop better relationships with the people around me.